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[POSTDATED] Welcome To My World

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Hello! Please call me Ai. This is a fandom journal--I don't read this friends list anymore, but I will continue to use this journal for fannish posts and to post fanfiction to apples_for_me. Feel free to friend/watch; you don't need my permission. ♥ If you are here for the fiction or fanfic, it's over at apples_for_me. ^_^ I'm always open to discussions, but I am anti-spoilers. Please check my anime list and manga list if you want to know what I've watched/am watching!

ETA: There are no direct/overt links from this journal to my "real" LJ out of this page to make sure Google or business acquaintances don't connect the dots: fandom people who are interested should feel free to ask me for my "real" LJ name through PM or e-mail. ♥

 
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*curls up into a ball* Why do I always do this, put tons of pressure on myself by starting something and then getting Scared (of all things) that I won't be able to finish it properly? >_< Dammit, Ai, for all the pressure you put on yourself, Fadeaway worked out fine. Kise no Copy will be fine too. What ISN'T fine is NOT continuing. Just write the damned chapter instead of running away!

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Milestones are SQUEE

And in a 180-degree change from the previous post... OMG one of my fics has 99 kudos. I have never been so close to triple-digit kudos before. Fadeaway is less than 1 week old and right now it has 99 kudos and 826 hits! It's currently the #15 KiKasa fic on AO3 by kudos sort! OMG ♥ *bounce squee excited jiggle* ♥

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Random

I know I'm not translating for popularity, but I have literally hundreds of translation posts, and yet no one knows me. How do I know this? I get maybe 20 notes every time I post a translation (if that--most of the posts have less than 20 notes.) On the other hand, other people's translations get hundreds and even thousands of notes.

Even my master list has barely 200 notes. Someone else translates one scene and gets 400+ in a couple of days.

I don't begrudge other translators the attention. I just wish I got some of that too. My ego and ambitions are just too big for reality. >_< *tries to stomp on them*

I know it's really stupid to do free labor like this, and it is even stupider to do this in obscurity. Only my stubborn streak (and my need to be as complete as possible) is making me continue at this point. >_<

Maybe I should just pull back and stop doing translating for a while so that I can actually get more writing done.

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Hello Again... ^_^;;;;;;;;

Did you know that Dreamwidth will only go back 14 days on your reading list even if you don't have 1000 entries to go through? *winces*

Er, hi friends, I got swallowed by Tumblr because Kuroko no Basuke fandom is over there and I have been translating the 3DS game Shouri E no Kiseki. I have actually finished translating the storylines for two schools in the last month, and am working on the third. I have made hundreds of posts (literally) with translations, all on Tumblr.

It has been a month of sinking myself into translation. I started just after I finished my tax exam, as a way to relax and enjoy some extra fun with some humorous interaction. And then I got sucked in.

Oh, and I also compiled a timeline/summary of the Teikou arc. And I have been hanging out in Skype chat until 2am almost every single night.

I need to stop. Um. *sheepish*

On the plus side, my Japanese has improved drastically over the last month.

On the minus side... where do I start?
  • How about the endlessly-postponed schoolwork that is only getting done because I have deadlines to meet and I refuse to not meet them (but therefore they are not getting done at 100% ability)?
  • Would you like to know about the writing I have set aside even though I am supposed to be doing it?
  • What about the music composition for the new game (election simulator) that my husband is writing that actually does need a full soundtrack (about 1 hour worth of nonstop music in total at least) and it takes me about a day to complete one track, assuming we have 12 tracks of 5 minutes each? (It is more likely we will have something like 15 tracks ranging from 3-4 minutes each...)
  • How about the final touches on the scholarship project I have put off for an entire month because there are other things I would much rather be doing?
  • I have an exam in less than 24 hours and I have not been able to concentrate on it AT ALL! T_T


*cries* I need to get back to real life and stop obsessively doing things. When I start a project, I tend to completely sink in and obsess over it, and that was never more evident than here.

So. Translation hiatus or something like that... I think. At the very least, I'm going to take it a lot easier and I'm going to stop getting on Skype CONSTANTLY. There's life out there beyond my computer and I need to bloody remember that. *slaps self* Pull yourself together, Ai. One month was nice, but enough is QUITE ENOUGH.

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ANGST

*cries* Oh god, I just read the KnB fic "Yellow" and now I understand why it's so famous. I was warned it would be painful, but hot damn, it ripped my heart out and shredded it.

ETA: And now I am listening to Aerosmith's What Could Have Been Love and augh the ANGST. I used to be such an angst-ball, but then I met my now-husband. Life has been great. I only ever really angst like this when he's not around (he's on a business trip.) Clearly life has been good to me. I know it! ♥ But augh it's been so long since I've been so angsty. T_T

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Translation Slowdown

I really shouldn't have spent so much time today translating, but translating is fun (and I have an excuse to watch videos of the KnB game, which are most of the time hilarious.) However, if I do much more translation this week, I'm really going to run into a time crunch with school. >_<

On the other side of the equation, my conscience is kicking me. All the time I spent translating could have been spent on writing and re-plotting Kise no Copy... T_T

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